it's me luis again, the whole message didn't fit in my previous response
Satan has sown lies into you heart
I've gone through many trials, things that really wounded me and i'm not talking about braking up with my girlfriend and silly things like those, i mean really hurtful things. the day i think i truly repented i was in tears feeling really bad conviction for my sins, i went to the end of my roap and asked god for forgiveness for some of my terrible sins, then i opened my bible on a random page and it said something about god being slow to anger, forgiving, something like that i can't find exacly where i was lead that day. but another time i was still hurting and had shaved my head out of frustration with a razor and some cut in my head, then i asked for forgiveness because i was about to cut again but fist i opened the bible on a random page again on 'Jeremiah CH 47' and it read something about the "boldness of egypt" then shortly after it said "until when will you keep cutting yourself?"
god is there with you, hurting with you, listening to you.
and let me tell you, it says in the bible that the fruit of the spirit are love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control, this fruits are showing in my life because even though my life still sucks i now have love, joy, peace, a bit more patience, kindness, goodness, still working on my faithfulness to god but i'm almost there, gentleness and self control.
this joy and peace i feel are weird because i used to feel emptiness, sorrow, pain etc. and before i knew it this things where gone. i just got a new perspective, found joy in knowing that the lord was with me.
God loves you my brother (: