I had one dream when I was sitting in my room alone and crying, when he opened my door and smiled. Tears were dripping down my face and I ran up to him and hugged him. But then I thought, isn't he dead?
Another dream I had was when I was at a party and he was just having a good time and smiling and I was too. But then again, I thought, isn't he dead?
I have had a rough life since he died (anxiety issues, suicidal thoughts, family problems, friend problems, school problems) and my life has been a living hell since he's been gone. He was 48 when died and he died of lung cancer. I'm 15, and I was 13 at the time, and he died 16 days after my birthday and 9 before my mom's. I feel as if I got cheated because I don't have anything that resembles him on me. I have his personality and heart - that's it. Not his green eyes, his hair, his laugh, his voice - I feel cheated. What do these dreams mean? Thank you for caring.