Let me start off by saying this woman isn't just a grandma to me. She practically raised me and I called her "mom" till I was thirteen, she is my best friend. Three days ago my family found out she is dying of stage 4 pancreatic cancer. She has had no symptoms at all, and her and I had only gone a week before to go skating.
I am so so lost, I am watching my entire family breaking down around me at the news and it is the hardest most devastating thing I've ever seen in my life. She has been given days to live and not one thing can be done since the cancer has wrapped it's self everywhere. My grandma is only 58.
My boyfriend left to BC today and I was supposed to be leaving with him before I found this news, so on top of losing my 'second mom' I won't see my boyfriend (my only rock in this right now) until May. I am crippling down under all this preassure, agony and sadness.
My grandma also suffered a stroke a day before the scans came back showing cancer, and she can no longer speak AT ALL. So she is sitting in a hospital bed dying and she can't speak to my uncle who she hasn't seen in seven years. My family is falling apart. My boyfriend is gone for now and I am all alone. I don't know what to do, I've never lost anyone before and I can't take all of this and it's only been a couple days since she's been hospitalized with all this.
Please, please someone tell me what to do, I'm so lost.