Dying is part of life and you will be able to handle what comes your way. Take comfort in that knowledge. Just when we think we cannot possibly handle the pain of loosing someone we love, we realize that there is no choice. We must accept what is. I am so sorry that your beloved grandmother is sick and dying. Your boyfriend being away adds to the stress, but that cannot be helped. Even when all the worst is happening, life must go on. There is still work to be done, laundry to wash, bills to get paid, and trash to be taken to the curb. The most important thing is for you to be with your grandmother as much as you can. She needs your support. As a retired nurse, I can tell you that the sense of hearing is the very last sense to go. Your grandmother may not be able to respond to your voice, but she hears it and needs to hear it very badly. Sit with her, hold her hand, talk, sing, read, tell little jokes. Tell her about your day if you are working or going to school. Massage lotion into her hands and feet, brush her hair, and keep her lips moist with lip gloss. Bring in a CD player and play her favorite music for her. Make sure the rest of your family remembers that even though they are devastated by the impending loss of your grandmother, she is not dead yet. Make every moment she is alive count for her by giving her support.