This sounds all too familiar to me. I went for several years with perfect paps, until the one I had in the months leading up to my wedding. The nurse, who is a b**ch, called me to say I needed to come back in for a colposcopy, where they could take biopsies. I have anxiety, so I asked if they could give me anything beforehand, and the nurse said I wouldn't need it. Let's just say I changed a few minds when I almost passed out on the exam table. My doctor got the results back from the biopsy and immediately referred me to a oncologist. I had a glandular cancer inside of my cervix. After the oncologist examined me, he scheduled me for surgery. Just a few weeks later, I had a cold knife conization.
My oncologist said that doctors choose different methods of removal, depending on the patient. Because of where my cancer was and the risk for not removing it all, the cold knife was the best choice for me.
Flash forward a year to this February. I go back to my GYN and her nurse calls and leaves a pretty worthless voicemail if you ask me. Basically, I had some abnormal cells growing and the lab couldn't be sure of the grade, but that I needed to follow up on that. I refused to follow up with them, so I gave my oncologist a call. They got me right in, did another set of biopsies, and called me within a week. I had high grade cells all over the place. Within that same day I was scheduled for laser ablation to kill off all the abnormal cells.
Since this surgery, I have been disappointed with my GYN and her office's lack of skills. When you are taking paps every 3 months as a follow up on the surgery, how do you miss high grade cells that are growing all over my cervix and the right vaginal wall?
As for the LEEP procedure, I have not personally had it, but I know several people who have. They have had no issues with it and two of the have conceived since their surgery.
In my opinion, if your concerns are not being addressed by the staff or if they are not answering your questions, you need to find a new doctor. You have the right to make an informed decision on the care of your body. Do not let anyone take that away from you. I would at least ask to be referred to a gynecological oncologist, who is definitely better equipped to handle your case than just a GYN.
I hope this has helped you in some way. Take care!