Well, try to look at it from a different vantage point.....most people get asked what they would if they only have a day, a week, a month to live....and usually they answer with their dreams, things they have always wanted to do but never had the guts/energy/money to do. Now,i am not telling you to go blow all your money or go crazy. Just thi.k about what means most to you or what dfeam youhad as a little kid. You can reconnect with old friends, take a roadtrip, join a club, volunteer or reconsider connecting with a faith community. It is your choice. The idea is to live your life in the most meaningful way possible. Also, maybe you should consider joining a support group.
I hope everything goes well for you. God bless you.