Ok, here it goes.
With 7 was stabbed with bayonet in my leg, almost lost it.
With 13 lost father in Bosnian war.
With 14 my mother got ill from cancer and later thyroid gland disorder.
With 16 survived bombing.
With 19 lost brother.
With 24 again almost lost mother (in case i reacted 10 minutes later she would die).
Last year I finished faculty and then found out that i won't be able to work because of criminal history of some family members.
Last 4 weeks: Found that my brother is hooked on heroin very hard (recovering now). Tried to emigrate when my friend told me literally 5 minutes before my departure that she won't help me and i backed off (because of guy she met online 10 months ago and met with him a couple of days ago:we were only friends, nothing else). Then my pc "died" and yesterday my mother ended up in hospital again:hard case of pneumonia with meningitis (it August and Summer!!).
Whatever I do, I fail. Whatever my family do, they fail.
My love life:umm, what love life?What is that? Is that something to put on bread for breakfast, or what :P?
I am trying not to be negative no matter everything, but it's really hard. Yesterday my friend told me I should do some uncrossing ritual?I am Orthodox Christian, but neither that is helping. Is there something unnatural going on?Some curse, witchcrafts? Any suggestion or advice is welcomed, I am opening myself for everything :).